even though today is my gastric that hurts but i dunno why my heart seems to hurt more. wen i see the doctor today i was crying not bcuz my gastric is veri serious but bcuz i realli wan him to be by my side. i miss his support. but i noe he wun sae anything now. i was told by the doc that if i dun seek treatment even after i have taken de med, it will turn fatal sooner or later. but without him i dun wan to seek any treatment at all. so i told the doc i dun wan the treatment le. i really want him to support me wen i need it but he isn't ard for me anymore. so i find it no point. =...(
i really miss him.