i broke down just now. is only the beginning of the week and i broke down. i can't stand the pressure that have been in my heart for so long le. I understand that a high paying job comes with great responsibilities but still i suddenly realize i am actually unprepared for adulthood and entering the working society.The people that i face everyday are of high post and most of them can be my father and my colleague some of them can be my elder sis or even my mum! i mean the whole company is so big yet i am the youngest. Nobody can understand the pressure that i felt. bcuz i am younger and oso inexperience, but still i have to match up to all the others working pace i am really suffocating. I hope i can survive and not collaspe. but ya i broke down just now partly bcuz of work. and oso today i called up singtel customer service again to enquire about my damn bill. And that stupid indian guy who "entertain" me make me so fed up with him. i am alr so tire from my work today yet the service that he gives sucks to the core! And there was discrepancies in my bill which he said will be rebated on the nx bill. i mean comm'on i'm not gg to believe the same reason again. Once biten twice shy. so i ask for his name so that i can take note for future reference for my "case". In the end he really did give and is so proud of it and the hell to him he ask me to might as well take note of the time and he told me the time is 6.01pm and hang my call.wtF! SO nx i went down to clementi to the shop where i registered my line and i show my contract as well as my bill to them and they sae is nt their fault as they have apply de student plan for me. wth! earlier i went down to Singtel and they told me that the Apple shop did nt process the student plan for me. so wth is this?? so all the while they are pushing blame to each other i am paying for the stupid bill which nobody cares to explain.

anyway... T.B.C. haiz. stupid SINGTEL PROVIDER!

after i went thru everything today by myself, i felt so physically and emotionally tire. i broke down on the way home. i really cried non-stop until i reach home. bcuz i really really miss him. i mean he used to be wif me when i face such problems and pressure. he will talk to me calm me down and also best of all hug me till i felt better. but now. all this is gone and i really really need it and miss it. even now while i am typing i really need his comfort. but things have change and he have change as well. i really really dunno wat to do. he alway tell me there he will owayz be there for me when i need him. from the time i change environment and begin a new chapter of my life. he is missing. and all the while, i needed his support physically mentally and emotionally but instead is all just air around me. that's why i broke down. where ever i went and do, it reminded me of him. all i want is him to be back the old him. not the one that i noe now. i really really need him with me. to tink bout it, he have actually seen me grow up. from sec one till now. my changes, my achievement, my cheekiness my everything. but yet now he is leaving me. i really can't take it. Today in the office while in the toilet, i heard things i shouldn't be hearing and i wanted to call him immediately becuz i am really scared but yet i resisted bcuz i noe i shouldn't be calling anymore bout such tings so wen i went back office i ask my colleague she confirm wif me and i almost burst out crying on the spot bcuz that is how badly shaken i am.

i really want him back. miss&love him lots and lots.