lotsa tings happen ever since i finish schoolin weeks ago.

dunno where to start too.

firstly: my bf and me haiz.. stil love and miss him but like i sae. everything have change.

secondly: great frens frm MDIS but tings turn sour due to immature tinkin of some people.

thirdly: started my job(full time) wif a heavy heart.

fourthly: if not for few great frens i wun survive de past few weeks.

fifthly: i'm running away from reality. hiding myself frm the facts. on de surface i seem alright. but in actualy fact i'm ruined and dead.

sixth: is reali tiring to carry on like that to wait wen he dun appreaciate and even smoke in front of me. even thou i dun reali mind now but stil i prefer if he doesnt smoke. cuz it hurts me alot to know he is ruining his health and i cant say or do anything.

seven: my feelings cant be express in words anymore.

eighth: job scope increasing tremdously. mentally tired everyday. schooling life is better. and i miss it alot.

nine: money is nv enuf. lotsa time to miss and tink of him. even thou he change back to who he used to be but it realii hurts me to see him like tt. becuz tt wasn't suppose to be him. i am cryin bcuz of how he smokes to harm his health.

tenth: i'm able to support myself financially and i am independant now. falling down have been hard but getting up is even harder.

live for 17yrs. but haf nv felt such tings before until now. i owayz believe he will change to be better and even now he is back to smoking i still believe he noes wen to stop. i reali believe that alot. but still i am hurt and oso prepared to accept it.

seems like all of a sudden i learnt lots of tings at all and am being force to accept and deal wif it.
thanks to fren like yilin feng yu and cheryl and oso xiao tong and most importantly my dearest sister claudia..=) for their comfort and encouraging words. if not i wun be typing here. probably in de coffin by now. never haf i noe my love for him could be that strong.

i once read somewhere that ask why people can still treat each other like frenz after they broke up and these is de 2 reasons given:

1) he/she still loves the other party veri deeply
2) he/she have never love the other party in the first place

for me the reason is number 1.

for him? i dunno wat's his reason.

i once read somewhere that says aquarius are veri independent and do not show their feelings no matter how strongly they felt it. i guess is veri true cuz tt is me. and oso it did mention that aquarius do not fall in love easily but once they do they will love that person and cherish it alot. which i guess is VERY true.

and in any horoscope books that anyone can find. Aquarius and Aries are the perfect match if they can keep up wif each others flame and fire(in terms of creativity and temper) as aquarius tends to have veri short temper and are veri unique and creative. Aries are verii fast in changing their feelings for the person. that's why aquarius can capture the attention of aries for so long as they are unique.

that's why i owayz believe we are owayz the best of partners for life.. Aries&Aquaries


reali miss&love him. haiz.