things are happening too fast.
tings been goin on too fast for me man.. with juz 4 papers i finish my diploma juz like tt ytd. wth.
well. in any case.. i am still confuse and oso i gt no direction in my life. onli know to wait and to carry on my life aimlessly. was bomb wif a qns juz nw. dun even noe hw to answer sia. cuz i am nt suppose to answer tt qns at all.wth. now i am damn confuse and and pressurize can. wth. sian.
been going out wif cheryl and the rest for the past weeks. enjoy myself so thoroughly lo..haha.. took lots of photo wif shawn and cheryl...lol...ytd we even went to wild oats (WO) to chill after paper..whahaha. had lotsa fun yea..hahaha kenneth was completely drunk and shawn was good for a first timer..though can see he felt giddy..whahaha de rest of us was ok lo..haiYo... especially me and cheryl lar.. we are so sian lo. everyone was high except de both of us even thou we consume de most..whahaha. i was stil wide awake can.hahaha but damn bored lar..haha shld haf juz let myself get drunk man..hahaha but de after effect will be bad thou..haha the hangovers tt i haf to endure IF i'm drunk..whahaha.. tink of it i rather be awake..lol. i am broke lo.. ke lian me..hahahaha. so i am starting work in 1 week time..whahaha. gt a high payin job leh..hahaha. startin at 1.6k and after 3 mths.. hehe e long awaited increment..lol incentives are oso delicious lo...hahahaha.
well.. seriously.. i dunno wat i want now. my love life is a mess. haha after 4 yrs den like tt. stupid rite..well.. but i noe one ting veri clearly now. i am in no position to like anyone else now. bcuz i am stil stuck in de middle. so people! stop pressurizing me pleaseeeee.. haiz... seriously larr.. after 4 yrs. thou he treats me like invisible now. i sure feel sad de ma. cuz all along i haf been depending on him. thou nw i am rather cash strap haha but stil i am financially independent finally.haha. sad and happi to tink of tt. haiz.. last time actaully can afford all by myself de.. but ask him buy is bcuz i reali treasure wat he gave me. and is all veri precious to me. as for all de soft toys rite. i get him to buy bcuz i can feel his presence ard me wen he is actaully VERY busy to pei me..haiz. nw ar.. same lorr. juz tt his busy ar.. is fren game and attachment liao. i am totally nt in his world lorr..haiz... sad sia. i already sad until de point tt i dun wish to tok about it anymore lorr... basically everyday juz make myself veri veri tire reach hm after resting den jiu can fall asleep le..haiYo.. sian sia.
HAIZ!!! dunno wat to do lar. stupid brain of mine. why cant ppl juz gif me a proper answer why muz sae dunno dunno and dunno as the answer. everyone tellin me dey dunno den like i know like tt. i oso nt veri clever lorr. u guys dun sae i will nv know lorr. wth. sometimes sad is sad but stil will piss of a bit de. but den horr.. seriously leh. for de past few weeks. even thou i am damn sad he noes but he dun care, i kind of like juz try to ignore tt feel of hurt lo. haiz.. try to act as if there is nthin de. so tt's why i end up nv get angry and flare up at him. sian. if he is tire of me can sae de lorr. nt as if i stupid rite. wth. I AM TIRE OF EVERYTHING LARR!!!
i miss him.