yet another day. second day of my work. learnt lots of tings but onli remeber a few of it and stil nt veri good at it. miss him like crazy. haiz. but he sae can onli patch after 4yrs. baby told me he stil love me i was over de moon and it reali gives me strength to wait for him. becuz i reali believe him that he still love me. juz that he is tire of a relationship where we quarrel almost everyday. which is true. i'm oso tire. so tink nw is de time where i learnt to appreciate him ba. and oso to *zip* my mouth wenever i can. i am tryin to be more caring and oso to be nicer to him. but dunno he gt realize anot. haiz.. even if he realize guess to him oso nt much of use now. but is ok. i dun mind. as long as he is ok healthy and happi den i am fine wif it even if he dun realize. haiz. been feeling so sorry. dis 2 days keep tellin him i wil be gg over. but ytd due to OT i cant make it. end up let him wait for nthin. I am reali sorry. and today i was early. but den he gt OT so i went hm to change and rest awhile first. but ended up i fell asleep until now. so veri sorry. reali reali sorry. actaully stil can go over nw ar. but den by the time i reach ar. wil be nearin or after 12am le. and i dun dare to walk that stretch of road cuz is dark and quiet. take cab. tink gt extra charges. but dis week. cant reali anyhw spend on cab le. if its ytd i wil jz cab dwn but den today bill come le. so need watever money i haf for it lorr. haiz. feel so guilty that i din go over sia. i am reali sorry.
reali miss&love him alot.
i miss my baby.