out of so many so wonderful gifts from people who truely care and remember bout me, the one and only one that i love it alot is from yilin.=) her gifts make me smile. i simply adores it. look at it for hours and i dun get sick of it. been rather depress recently. i am only able to eat 1 meal a day. i remember that i used to eat alot. all kinds of food all kinds of snacks and drink. but now i am only eating 1 meal each day. i'm getting slimmer each day. maybe that's a good sign. well.. seeing him makes my heart ache. nt seeing him makes my heart wrenched. i don't go online anymore bcuz msn reminds me of the poison that he have fed me on that christmas morning. and i am slowly dying frm that poison. maybe i have mistaken him but well since he dun wanna explain den there's nthing i can do. only suffer myself.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
i have cried for 24hrs. my eyes are swollen my heart is still pain and i can't think well anymore. my tears have dried up even though my heart is still bleeding. wat can i do? so wat if i still love him? love de heart that hurts me but nv hurt the heart that hurts me. tt's wat i am doin now. even though he have hurt me badly. but i'm not doing anything anymore. i am juz taking de hits frm his arrow of pain silently without even the tot of retaliating. because of one reason >> i love him.
bcuz of that reason, that's why i kept quiet. i love him that much.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
busy life ya. workin life is sian. no time to ply at al.. everyday work and de money is stil nt enuf. stupid salary and most of the gers in the world are all love idiot. wth. stupid rite. wtf.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
still havin the heart ache and still loving him.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
the kind of misses and love and the sadness i have for him cannot be describe with words. it can only be felt.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
still missing and loving him. but there's nthing i can do only to stand by him quietly. give him the support and comfort that he need. i hope i can help him in certain ways. i reali hope i can.
missing&loving him lots.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
i'm finally home. bad hair day but de colour damn nice.haiz. miss him like hell. i dun dare find him tok. cuz wen i was in malaysia last nite i cried to slp again cuz i reali reali miss him. i dunno hw to carry on like dis. is reali crazy for me. all i ask was to have a r/s. but is it so difficult? ppl make mistake. he make mistake. he was given chances.but i mad mistakes, is the death sentence for me.
reali miss&love him.
Sunday, December 09, 2007
going off to malaysia in an hr time. but but heart is so heavy. is still in sg. last nite din slp well again cuz i dreamt of him again.
reali miss and love him.
Saturday, December 08, 2007
i am sayin the same thing everyday. but he doesnt even noe i reali felt that way. even if he noe le. he doesnt even tink bout it seriously.
so wat if i reali miss him? so wat? is all one sided rite? i love him i reali do. but so? he doesnt even wanna accept it.
Friday, December 07, 2007
i reali wan u back wif me. i dunno how to carry on like tt everyday. mayb ur happier now if that is the case let me noe... cuz on my part i wan u back. i still treat you like my boyfriend. and i definitely love you more den juz my boyfriend. dun make me go on alone.
Thursday, December 06, 2007
i reali miss him i reali do. but does he noe? does he noe wat ever he saes nw affect me? wen i read tt email dis mornin frm him i cant control but i cry wen i work today. lucky no one saw if nt i gt to answer and i make a mess in de office today cuz i wasnt concentrating at all.
i reali miss&love him.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
my gastric hurts again today while working. and it reminded me of wat the doctor sae. she sae if it hurts again i will have to go for the scope. cuz is gettin serious. but stil i chose not to go.
Monday, December 03, 2007
i miss him. u have owayz ask me to sae wat i feel in my heart and not to contradict. now i sae le. but yet u dun wan to listen anymore.
i miss you i reali do. i noe words cant tell u how much i miss and love you so by actions i am going to wait for you. unless u tell me straight in my face that u have gt another gf and u reali love her if not i am going to wait for you.
i reali miss u. i am keeping all my misses in my heart. =...(
Sunday, December 02, 2007
the only thing that keeps me going is the tot of him. but missing him so much everyday makes me depress. but it cant be help cuz i really miss him. dunno wat the heck i toking about. so ya juz forget it. i miss him. even juz a simple msg from him i will be over the moon but yet he did nthing.
reali miss&love him.
Saturday, December 01, 2007
hello
Simple 19 going 20 =)
find simplicity out of everything
whats up
Long Term Loves - SLEEPING(1st on the list) - MahJONG-ing - PhotograpHY - BAKING(DEFINITELY=D)
Short Term Loves - Studying - Working [who wants all this right? haha]
i want/i need
i want life to be simple [stupid wish]
i want money to fall from the sky [childish thinking]
i want all the luxuries without working [wishful thinking]