out of so many so wonderful gifts from people who truely care and remember bout me, the one and only one that i love it alot is from yilin.=) her gifts make me smile. i simply adores it. look at it for hours and i dun get sick of it. been rather depress recently. i am only able to eat 1 meal a day. i remember that i used to eat alot. all kinds of food all kinds of snacks and drink. but now i am only eating 1 meal each day. i'm getting slimmer each day. maybe that's a good sign. well.. seeing him makes my heart ache. nt seeing him makes my heart wrenched. i don't go online anymore bcuz msn reminds me of the poison that he have fed me on that christmas morning. and i am slowly dying frm that poison. maybe i have mistaken him but well since he dun wanna explain den there's nthing i can do. only suffer myself.
