it have been days since i contact him. and he did not contact me at all. i noe that even after your ns i will still be waiting silently. but i am reali afraid that one day you wil stop loving me and will never wana get back wif me again. i reali miss you. i reali do. but why cant u juz give us a chance? u sae that u have given me chances. but did u even sae it out? u did not so i dunno. rite now. u make me cry alone everyday. heartache everyday. u sae u din ask me to wait. but u noe veri well even if u dun ask me to wait i will juz wait. bcuz i only wan to be wif u. u can sae i'm thick skin and wanna cling on to u. but i can only tell u that is bcuz i still love you. if one day i am not waitin for you anymore that means i dun love you anymore. but i noe myself. once i love someone it will be forever. for eternity. we went thru thick and thin together but u can juz gif it up like tt. u sae u still love me. i am reali happi. but wen u sae u wun gif me assurance whether u will still love me after ur ns. makes me cry that nite. i miss you more den i can describe wif words. so i told myself while ur training for ur ns. and i worry for you, i will use all the love, misses and worries for you to be the source of encouragement for me to wait for you. to excel in watever i do while u excel in ur area. i believe in miracle. but tt is unless u still love me after your ns.
still loving and missing him that much and even more each day.
