每一段恋情都有不同的结局...刚恋爱的情侣会觉得爱情是那么的甜那么的多滋多彩...恋爱有一段日子的情侣就会觉得爱情也没什么了不起...往往就是在这个期间...我们会突然忘了要记得为什么我们当初要在一起..我们忘了要珍惜眼前的所有东西和自己原本很珍惜的人...这个时后的我们只记得所有不好的经过..所有不愉快...我们只知道累了...是时后停了...
当我们真的停下了脚步...才知道错了... 因为我们根本放不下彼此...
我用错了方式去爱你...可是我发现的太晚了..我们的过去只能变成我最珍贵的回忆...一个让我永远无法用任何词语能形容的回忆...
最近听到一首歌...这首歌的歌词让我有了很深的感触...其中有一段歌词是这样唱的...
baby...想对你说声对不起 用错了方式去爱你 因为我太在意(如果没有你) 我的世界只剩回忆 每天只面对孤寂 已来不及 再说我爱你...
i have said before.. no matter what happen and if i'm given a chance to choose again.. i will still want you back by my side...
现在的我已经不是以前的我...看着记事本...翻阅了我们所有的回忆...我发现我已经不是我了...我不知到怎样才能真正的笑...不知到怎样开开心心的过日子了...
i dun tear anymore.. bcuz i tear inside my heart now. i dunno wen can i get over it or can i even get over it in the first place. everyplace where we have once been...even if its onli one time.. i still remember it vividly wat had happen there as if its only yesterday... i look at my phone everyday.. hoping that wen it rings.. it will be a message juz like before from you... asking "have i taken my meal? do take care if not later gastric again... =)" ... everytime i realize dis isnt gonna happen again... i noe i muz having been missing you too much.. too much that i cant even speak of it now. bcuz i dunno where can i start..
每天躺在一个空荡荡的床...真的好不习惯...想念你的拥抱...想念你对我的爱与疼爱...真的好想你...
human beings are juz so weird. one moment we are head over heels at each other. de other moment we are talkin breakin up. leaving each other life. since breakin up is so painful for both parties, why nt juz stay tgther for de rest of the life? why cant ppl be more innocent. juz do wat dey wan. y muz dey break up. den haf painful nites for the rest of de dunno hw many months? why
wah.. shit.. head splitting. whole body ache. even thou i slept long hours. but i've been dreamin all the while. damn tire. wth. my throat is still sore and swollen..wth.. tink i'm falling sick soon again. sian. i've gt a lousy stomach. lousy health. dear used to take care of me. my meals all dis and many other tings. but now is over. i oso heck care le. bcuz i oso dunno how. haha i onli noe muz eat muz slp. haha. tt's all. fainting soon. bad feeling =S
Sunday, February 24, 2008
endless late nite.. all those glamour all those glitz and makeup.. actaully its nthing but juz a mask... scare that the nite will juz be gone.. heard that he might be leaving. makes me reali sad. mayb is bcuz it reminded me of starz. tt nite wen he told me is over. how to get over it i dunno. i totally gt no idea to watever questions that u guys ask me. all i noe is i juz haf to keep myself occupied. to do tings. he haf change me drastically. i used to be someone.. who haf so much pride. would nt even shed a single tear to let anyone know i'm actually feelin dwn and sad. but recently... all dis tears came dwn like raindrops easily. i've gt no idea why is it like tt.. i dunno y i tear. is nt i dun wanna sae. but i reali gt no idea. i juz wan him to hug me one more time. without sayin anything. i juz need a hug.. a long one. i'm greedy yes i noe. i guess in the end i'm back to square one. i'm feelin numb thou i noe actually it hurts. lookin back at those photos of happier time portrays a different me. how to keep it gg i dunno. i'm juz tire. everytime i reach hm. i will have that weird feeling. 4 walls facing me.. everywhere his stuff.. so how do u guys expect me to wanan go hm early nowadays? is impossible. going out to drink is part of my life. going out on fri nite to party is oso my life.
on a happier note. i love strepsils now.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
sian.. i now i miss him..somewhere in my heart i still miss him.. but i can't do anything anymore.. i reali cant..
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
好怪的感觉... things seems to be out of control le... i dunno how to stop it... end up is so weird.. situations are so awkward and uncomfortable. weird. i miss de starz.. i miss my starz. i'm still working at these hour.. bcuz i cant slp. vomit like hell juz now.. stupid ice lemon tea. lol hopefully i can go japan dis april. will be a long trip for me.. i juz wanna take a rest le.. 好像很久没停过我的脚步了...好累.. 真的好累... i still miss my starz.. thanks alot for all the bday wishes.. even to those i did nt manage to reply personally...
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Monday, February 11, 2008
今天是初夕夜...但我依赳没有胃口吃团圆饭...因为今年的团圆对我以经没有了任合义已...even if i'm sitting in front of the dining table.. my heart and thots are still with him. i look up to the sky...i saw the many stars that once light up my heart as they form the shape of the heart.. but tonight... the stars seems to not shine so brightly anymore... and i couldnt find that heart shape anymore. i haf nv told him b4 that every chu xi.. i will look up the sky and see the formation of the heart. but tonight.. the stars are telling a different stories... every star that hung up high tonight represents every bit of my misses to him..instead of eating... i drank up the whole bottle of red wine unknowingly.... all i noe is i cannot shed even a tear during the dinner as i'm having it with my family and cousins and uncles and my grandma.. i can onli hold it back until i reach hm which is now.. where my tears are freeflow... 初夕夜里.... 我真的很稀望你能回来...宝贝我真的很想你...
Thursday, February 07, 2008
不要问我东西因为我先在只懂得心痛. wen wil i recover? wen wil he wanna it back? wen? wen? i am hurt.
Monday, February 04, 2008
我失去的笑容处了他可以帮我找回来, 就连我自己也无法找的回来...every weekend wen i come home frm his place.. 我就有说不尽的思恋...流不完的眼泪和心痛...
我真的好想恋他...
Sunday, February 03, 2008
hello
Simple 19 going 20 =)
find simplicity out of everything
whats up
Long Term Loves - SLEEPING(1st on the list) - MahJONG-ing - PhotograpHY - BAKING(DEFINITELY=D)
Short Term Loves - Studying - Working [who wants all this right? haha]
i want/i need
i want life to be simple [stupid wish]
i want money to fall from the sky [childish thinking]
i want all the luxuries without working [wishful thinking]