今天是初夕夜...但我依赳没有胃口吃团圆饭...因为今年的团圆对我以经没有了任合义已...even if i'm sitting in front of the dining table.. my heart and thots are still with him. i look up to the sky...i saw the many stars that once light up my heart as they form the shape of the heart.. but tonight... the stars seems to not shine so brightly anymore... and i couldnt find that heart shape anymore. i haf nv told him b4 that every chu xi.. i will look up the sky and see the formation of the heart. but tonight.. the stars are telling a different stories... every star that hung up high tonight represents every bit of my misses to him..instead of eating... i drank up the whole bottle of red wine unknowingly.... all i noe is i cannot shed even a tear during the dinner as i'm having it with my family and cousins and uncles and my grandma.. i can onli hold it back until i reach hm which is now.. where my tears are freeflow... 初夕夜里.... 我真的很稀望你能回来...宝贝我真的很想你...