endless late nite.. all those glamour all those glitz and makeup.. actaully its nthing but juz a mask... scare that the nite will juz be gone.. heard that he might be leaving. makes me reali sad. mayb is bcuz it reminded me of starz. tt nite wen he told me is over. how to get over it i dunno. i totally gt no idea to watever questions that u guys ask me. all i noe is i juz haf to keep myself occupied. to do tings. he haf change me drastically. i used to be someone.. who haf so much pride. would nt even shed a single tear to let anyone know i'm actually feelin dwn and sad. but recently... all dis tears came dwn like raindrops easily. i've gt no idea why is it like tt.. i dunno y i tear. is nt i dun wanna sae. but i reali gt no idea. i juz wan him to hug me one more time. without sayin anything. i juz need a hug.. a long one. i'm greedy yes i noe. i guess in the end i'm back to square one. i'm feelin numb thou i noe actually it hurts. lookin back at those photos of happier time portrays a different me. how to keep it gg i dunno. i'm juz tire. everytime i reach hm. i will have that weird feeling. 4 walls facing me.. everywhere his stuff.. so how do u guys expect me to wanan go hm early nowadays? is impossible. going out to drink is part of my life. going out on fri nite to party is oso my life.
on a happier note. i love strepsils now.
