dearest aunty...
do you noe hw i felt wen i learnt of wat happen to you? i wasn't given a chance to see u. juz bcuz u noe i will cry for you. juz bcuz u care. u have seen me grow up. u taught me how to love and be in a r/s. u taught me to do my math my chinese my sci. u taught me all the handicraft that i now noe. u taught me everything. wen i take my exams...u gave me encouragement..u send me cards to encourage me.. u did nt fail to remind me u will owayz be dere wen i need someone to tok to. wen i fail in my first r/s...u caught me crying alone.. u hold on to me...tellin me.. is okay.. everything is gonna be alrite.. wen i was alway in de hospital wen i was younger.. u would owayz make time to visit me...each time bringing me wat i love most to keep me occupy juz so that i will be distracted frm the pain that i used to have. u taught me to be brave... to be brave enough to fight for my own happiness wen i told you about that ger. u practically taught me everything.. now i needed u to guide me again.. but ur nt ard anymore.. wat shld i do now? i juz cant come to terms wif u moving on like tt.
心中有种痛。。。这无法形容的伤痛。。。no idea how to show any emotion wen i'm outside. even i felt weird myself. even i realize i'm not myself today. 为什么所有的不好都要一起发生呢?!!! how can i stand up wen one wound haven heal another one juz come like tt. dropping like a bomb?? HOW??? 到底要我怎样做才对??!!!!