Personal
few more hours... less den 3hours. it's 28th april again. for the past 4 years i didn't quite remember the day until the day itself..and it's owayz him who remember it. rite now... i dunno if he still remember. but even if he remembers... i noe he's nt doing anything anymore..and i cant expect anything anymore... 但就是不知不觉有了一种悲伤感... i cant help but felt sad that this had happened. bcuz tmr is actually de day we had (used to) looked forward to. it's time to give up on him...a girlfriend without a girlfriend title...makes it sound like i'm an embarrassement to him tt's y he cannot gif me any title. like i'm into some third party r/s which is not a fact. what should i do? everything is in a mess again... haiz.
WORK.
what had happenend over last weekend have become a phobia for me to work for others. i'm afraid to work for others again. thou i understand tt not all the people are like tt. but as long as your in the office, and your a girl with more den average look? office politics will stick to u even if u dun open ur mouth. i often thot tt as long as i dun open my mouth at the unappropriate time, as long as i dun reliate back den i wun be involve as it takes 2 hand to clap. but last weekend i learnt tt is nt the case. even if ur as meek as a mouse, u speak at the appropriate time doing your own stuff help others wen dey need help, dere will still be people picking on you no matter how well i do my stuff or watsnot. its scary. its reali scary and had caused the phobia in me to work for others anymore.
