veri veri bored. was reading thru every single post that i have ever posted. and i've got onli one thinking and that is: stupid. 've led such a wasteful life even until now, i'm still wasting my life away. wat for stay at a job wen i dun like it. wat for help others juz so i felt kinda guilty. i realize if i haf to make a choice between studies and work. i will HAPPILY choose STUDIES.
tinking back, i've actually gone thru quite alot in dis last r/s. thou i onli blog like 2% bout it. haha the rest are all in my heart. wenever ppl tell me dey haf gone thru alot and i'm still young so i still gt lots to go thru... i owayz haf one feeling wif me. and tt is thou i'm young but my heart is old. gone thru too much tt i dun wish to even mention it and tell others tt i have gone thru alot too...
dere are so many decision to make. so much choices. hw i wish tings are as simple as it use to be.
was loved by someone and to love someone back. worried only about exams and results.
and not money and time.
after workin for nearing half a year, i realize hw tough it is for my dad to be de sole bread winner. that's de tot tt kept me frm quitting up to dis point as well.
以前的我累了就睡。。。现在的我累了想睡却不能好好的睡。。i dunno why..but everytime even if i fell asleep i will still be dreaming of tings i worry in de daytime. which makes my heart feel heavier each day.
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