actually all my dreams and hopes have been dashed long ago. so watever i am doing now. i'm juz doing it. i live one day by one day itself. nv knowing wat will happen tmr. 原本的我不懂得吃醋但任识你后。。。全都变了。。。单纯的我也不懂得爱。。。但现在却了解了所有能爱的爱。。i hate that there's such memories that make it a past. hate de present for having to go thru it day by day. hate that there's a future pre-planned, which is my destiny yet unknown to me. what i hate most is my existence in this place where i dun belong at anywhere in any place and in anyone's heart. i've lost my sense of security. lost the trust.