当你发现你已经深深的爱上一个人。。。即使摆脱了分手的阴影。。度过了自以为最痛苦又难过的日子。。。当他又再次出现在你眼前。。。你的心还是会不知不觉的痛起来。。然后回家的路已被眼泪模糊。。。脑海里就只有曾经发生过的种种事情。。。到家了。。面对镜子看着自己就只能对自己说:。。。“过去了就让它过。。。心在怎么痛怎么爱他。。。也只能当做不是一回事。。 ”玩完了就只能是Game Over.
开了电脑。。。又看见他在msn留下的message:
"It's been a long time since we met up. How are you? It was nice running into you just now. You look... more quiet than the last time. Is everything okay?"
学会了沉默是金。。。说太多决局也是如此。。。
最后泪还是流但狠下心什么也不说就把电脑关了。。。
虽然对别人而言这个举动并没什么。。。但对一个知道该放手但心中还是有爱的女孩来说。。还是地鼓起勇气才做得到。。。
juz finish my mj session wif my own family. -_-" cuz we got nthing better else to do and my dad is so nice to serve me drinks while i play..whahaha first time nia... HAHA.. i reach hm in the evening. had a great time out dere. hehe. enjoy myself. LOL
so damn tire now. and my gastric is acting up again. wtf! is damn irritating de lorr. zzz.
dunno y but i juz feel so tire all the time thou i slp early. but den mmm.. i tink is bcuz even if i slp i dun slp well except tt day at yilin hse. haha. so tireeeee. haha but den but den i dun wanna spend the whole day slping so i keep find something to do. (usually swimming or jogging) LOL
mmm.. i hope my wallet grow fatter everyday. =D heee
ohh i love the cooling breeze of the nite. i tink i am juz so a loner lar. haha i can choose to sit at somewhere tt i can see de starz or sometimes even no starz juz to enjoy the breeze. and the ting is i will fall asleep after sometime..(oh yida ask me to do something more meaningful tt day like gg east coast see the starz and sunrise i tink) LOL.. so damn funny. tt is considered meaningful to him hahahha... last nite i skip the movie session wif dem cuz i'm reali too tire and wasn't feeling well. i dunno y. and is like its so sudden de. and i slept damn early last nite. by 11pm i'm alr slping. can u believe it? i was surprise too but den ju heck care. cuz the moment i close my eyes i'm in lala land le.. -_-"
woahh!!! being lock out isn't a bad ting after all. its been such a LONG LONG time since i sleep without a dream meaning DREAMLESS~~ whahahahaha
i slept all the way till my fren woke me up. omg! hahaha so paiseh. LOL but ya its been so long.. its reali nice. mayb a change of environment. to a place where all the bad memories din surround me i sleep better. =D
thanks to my mummy for locking the door though.. haha but den i oso dun wan to be lock out lar. hahaha... imagine i'm working late the next time in the hotel.. whahaha and i'm being locked out of my hse. wth.. damn tire de lorr. ok i'm thinking too far. LOL
but well everybody!!! GOOD MORNING!!!
ok i noe i'm slow in catching the movies. but busy lar. haha. so tmr i intend to watch sex and the city, kungfu panda etc etc. hahaha but i tink i will fall asleep inside. lol too tire le. nowadays once my finger stop typing for a moment i can juz doze off. OH YA i oso wanna go ktv. hahaha
i'm living happily now. cuz i'm just living one day as one day pass. did i mention that the guy i met dis morning is CUTE? hahahaha i tink i did mention. LOL cuz i will nv forget such tings. LOL
"雨下了/ 又停了/ 泪流了/ 又干了。
你走多久 多远了 我还在这。
你说的 你忘了 可是我 还记得。
我的耳边 再听不见我以为永远不会变 最习惯的明天见。
放手了 该回到原点 心会受伤 也能复原, 我会学着自己走出从前祝福明天。"
The above quote is just so true.
看见朋友对我的关心和疼爱终于觉得我也可以幸福的
曾经失去原有的爱情幸福,这段日子我学会了独立。
虽然有时后还是会孩子气,刁蛮又任性
但我学会了怎么去珍惜眼前的人和事物
珍惜,往往要失去了才会明白它的重要性
it's another lesson learnt.
and of cuz i can tell who can give me happiness and who can't now..but too bad. those who can gif happiness are all taken up either by someone or by their own troubles and thots. (hehe) so that means i gotta learn to go to the temple be a nun. =)
why am i so afraid of going back to old lifestyle.? actually there's a real reason. but i can't blog or sae bout it. only he(my ex) noes and i noe. and i am feeling damn terrible about it. i juz can't face the fact up till now. thou i tink there's about 2 yrs that had passed since it happen. i juz dunno how to go about facing it and to get over it. ever since then, it had been a barrier for me. one that i can't and most probably will never get over it. don't ask me what happen unless i wanna tok to you about it myself. don't force me to say because i will go into real avoidance. 那种感觉好辛苦...but i can't do anything about it. Le Sigh...
heh. i've got frenz who tinks i'm damn open to everything. i've got fren who find that i'm juz too random. i've got frenz who tinks i'm okay with everything. but den.. i tink. there's still certain limit to my openness which i dun show and speak about. whichhhh. haiz. why ar? dotz leh. well anw juz feel like blogging everything here today except that ting. soo tink dis will be a long and naggy post. mmm...tings are definitely getting out of hand. 2007 is a year where lovers break up. 2008 is a year where lifes get into BIG BIG MESS. well wat else can i tink about now? my studies they are definitely going well. job searching i am taking it damn relax mood nw. playin..i'm getting into the playing hard lifestyle while i can AGAIN! family? yes dey are impt but dun feel close now. only dun wanna see dem sad tt's all. frenz? all going emo. hai wo oso worry for no reason...-_-" the usual heck care attitude of mine!!! GONE! in one nite? zzz.
i'm oso dying le~~~omg.
*** yilin better prepare money kae.. i told you last nite wat i wan le. dun need too many maids i scare of dem. later u nt ard to help me settle dem i will scare de.LOL! international passport arh. remember that. is impt. bcuz i wanna roam de world. heee..the list will go on de. dun worry. Oh and dun worry that i din leave anything for you wen i leave the world ya. i will leave behind all the guys for your choosing de. LOL! slowly pick. they are all yours. HAHA