previous post was edited and edited and edited. but i juz cant seems to sae everything out all at once. my mind is in a mess. wen one person haf to swallow in all their tots and words never to let another living/breathing soul noe about it. everyting will juz go wrong. i seriously hate ppl who give false hope to others. ruining one person's life and after that to gif false hope and in the end to ruin the person harder again.
HOW THE HELL WILL I PICK MYSELF UP FRM WHERE I FALL DEN???I WILL NEVER NEVER KNOW WHERE I HAF FALLEN DEN!!!ya i'm all the bad and your all the good.
I'm not trustworthy. I'm a bad influence. I'm a rebel in your eyes. I'm never perfect to be your girl. I'm not demure enough to be a girlfriend. I'm not sensitive&caring enought to be the girl all guys dream to have as a girlfriend.In SHORT I'm UNWANTED! I NOE!To Alson: HW TO BE HAPPY IN THIS BLOODY WORLD WITH SUCH PPL??? anw enjoy ur stay dere where there's no disturbance frm ppl that you noe. =)
To Yilin: i can't even save myself le.. sorry dear i can't save you at any moment now. gotta depend on yourself at the moment.
To Tong: Ya your right. i better get out of this shit first before i do anything else. which is damn impossible bcuz i am back to old lifestyle.
To Carrie: Sooner or later sure pregnant. remember to attend my baby first month when the time comes.
and people please leave quietly when u are leaving me for good to be in your own world. for me, i dun like goodbye. i dun like send off. i dun like all the negative tings that had been connected to people leaving. so please. dun bombard me within one nite. -_-" i will die. bcuz i never noe hw to react in such situation. i cant grasp the reality that hits me after that. thou i will be damn sad. but so? too bad lorr. i noe someone is waiting for me to open my golden mouth to ask him stay. but i wun. i never will do that anymore.
THE FIRST TIME WILL BE MY LAST TIME TO ASK PPL TO STAY!i had promised myself that. no matter how unbearable it is for me, i will never OPEN MOUTH again. unless that person can make me do it again.