well well well. where shld i start.? mm.. ytd in my midst of drunkness i spill the bean somewhat to him. well true 2yrs i gotta get over it. but dearie.. i din finish tellin u de whole story so i guess u still din get it and i noe ur nt obligated to sae or help or do anything. i blabber too much nonsense. and i felt so embarrass by it. -_-" i had been a merlion de whole day today. felt dehydrated and hungry yet i cant eat anything or drink anything. bcuz i will juz vomit it out. seriously thou tt asshole had suffered a serious kick frm me. but still i am being taken advantage of. headache~~ today dey ask me out and i reali couldnt make it bcuz wenever i stand up i will juz feel so dizzy tt i wanna vomit again. so i rejected dem. felt bad bout it cuz dey keep calling and ended up i'm more like wat they sae of me hang up and sell. zzz. nvm. so suan le lo. i am seriously wondering hw will another guy accept a ger like me again? ever since tt kinda look i seen in those knowing ppl's eye, i cant forget it. its like to sae.. linda..ur such a loose ger.. its ur own fault that u got so drunk outside and such tings happen to you.serve u rite. like i sae i'm too trusting. i trusted frenz too much. i learnt my lesson frm it. but yet nw. i'm back to tt life again. i hate it. but its de only ting i can do to keep myself occupy. ~~socialising. i told xiaoxian sometimes too much socialising isnt good. well i guess such tings nv happen to her before therefore she still enjoy socialising. for me i socialise nw to pass time. i mean who or which ger would be so stupid if given a choice to entertain all those stupid guys smile and teases and everything.unless not to sae there are some gers who reali like socialising.. n obviously hangover isnt a good feeling. althou nw i onli get damn serious hangover wen i touch vodka. bcuz of such tings tt happen to me. i dun even dare to voice out nw if i were to like a guy. bcuz i will question myself wat right do i haf to like someone now. bcuz i feel tat de guy deserve someone even better den me. well anw i believe that if two person are fated to be tgther, even without sayin it out dey will both feel that intensity of love between dem. hah. i guess if its one sided den of cuz there's no hope lar. well alson u sae i dun let u view my blog. nw dis blog only u and i gt the permission to enter. feast ur eyes ba. haha. nx time will post some pretty babes foto for u to feast on as well. LOL.
blog will only be open up again once i clear up some stuff. =D
well my parents have been quarrelling alot recently. and dey are special parents. dey do cold wars. and my dad he's been so strict recently that i dun even wanna tok to him or ask him anything. it makes me dun wanna stay at hm wen dey are having cold war and wen i've got no choice like today i'm having hangover and dun wanna go out i juz stay in my room de whole day. got out of it juz for bath eating n toilet break. i juz dun wanna see dem. bcuz everytime i will be caught in de middle. i noe is stupid of me to do tt. but i tink if i were to sae anything else or appear more in front of dem i will juz flare up. by tt time poor parents dun blame me for my bad temper and behaviour bcuz i wil juz do anythin to make both of u wake up frm all dis quarrel.
shit. re-read this post i find tt i am becomin a problematic teen? haha. i used to have such loving parent and totally no quarrel at all. and i live very happily with no other bad association and influence frm de outside. but nw. hah. everything is different. juz look at me.. everything tat i have mention above. haf all gone rite. born with a silver/golden spoon i gotta learn all this and being de eldest i dun even noe who can i turn to wen i juz need a shoulder and a listening ear. my brothers thou dey are mature for their age but still dere are tings dey stil dun get it. my youngest brother. stupidly rebelling for dunno wat shit. go bang wall and wake up lar. i guess its a phase tt all guys went thru wen dey are growing up?sometimes all dis tings juz make me feel so tire. i cant depend on my parent for watever i wan like i used to anymore. tt's y even if i haf only a part time job i work hard for it. i'm too used to having the high life. i need to be hardworking and independent enuf to support myself. and it seems like for no reason. ever since after o level. i've been providin for the family even wen i dun haf a high income. nw half of de family income comes frm me. and i find it stupid.
