i hope i can pick myself up within this 2 years. i felt so vulnerable now. i lost the ability to judge.. like who's good or who's bad... i can't read from the surface anymore.. and furthermore... i'm in somewhere so new to me... i really dunno wat's real and wat's not... it makes me wanna hide in the backgrd. but i understand that... i gotta learn to pick up my confidence level sooner or later and by hook or by crook. i wanna show him i have the ability. i dun wan to fail him or myself any longer. growing up is so hard. especially when morale have been given a big blow. so many cross junctions. so many tings to learn and decide.

我好想好想让你看见我这两年会有的改变。。。看见我的努力和成功。。。好想证明给自己看

i was told repeatedly by someone that our destiny is pre-destined. but i owayz believe if i try hard enuf.. i will owayz be able to change it.. cuz 命运使终掌握在自己的手里。。。