it seems... i've really lost it. i'm so absorbed in my own thots... i can't communicate well with people. even though i noe i've lots to say.. so stupidly i ended up just tokin a bit of rubbish. haiz...
i'm tinking hard now. everyone that i've know. everyone. who are dey. how are dey like. are they geninuely there as a fren? they ask me out is just as casual as a fren or do they have intentions.
previously.. i just dun bother bout all the above. but... ever since wat i've heard and seen. it makes it so scary. so scary not to tink before i act or reply.
seriously what's the problem? i dun tink about all this.. i got taken advantage of.. if i tink.. i am so bothered by it.
just now.. tonton met up wif me for lunch.. end up i noe i'm being a very bad companion bcuz i was so absorb in all my thots that i kinda dao him. -_-" haiz. but looking at him.. i just cant understand why he can be so free of thots? or is it he chose not to think bout his problem?
rite nw de me.. i only concentrate on earning money.. work to stop myself frm all this wondering.
i think i'm going mad lar. wth. y did i let someone whom i dun even noe for a mth to tok all dis shit to me? but i realize even if he din tell me all dis thing... i am just an empty shell now.